Lonelily

This was going to be my Currently Listening for the last post, but it got kind of long, and I really wanted to post the whole song.

"Lonelily" - Damien Rice

I love this song. It's a sad song for sure, but also sort of cathartic to yell along with the chorus when he yells it at the end. And, to boot, Leo turned me on to Damien Rice, many years ago, and his music has been with me in so many times and places in the years to come.

While she was here, I showed Leo the house I used to rent a room in, way out at the edge of town, where I first met Mr O. I took her on the long walk there from town, past the ocean, and told her about blustery winter nights of howling wind and pounding rains, when I used to walk home from town to that house, to Mr O and all that excitement (this was in the beginning, back when we were flirting and fooling around and sleeping together and I was all psyched out over him), and how I'd walk to that house in that crazy weather, singing Damien Rice songs in my head. I also used to stand in my tiny room in that house, getting dressed for the day, feeling hotter than I ever had before, with Damien Rice in my head.

It's funny how music, though it means so much more than a simple backdrop, is such a soundtrack for all the memorable moments. Back then though, I had never yet heard this particular song. Now, it is the most played song on my iTunes (it constantly battles with Fiona Apple's "Tymps (The Sick in the Head Song) for that position).


Here are the words:

"I gave me away
I coulda knocked off the evening
But I lonelily landed my wants in her hands
In a way
I felt you were leaving me
And I was sure I wouldn't find you at home

And you let me down
You coulda knocked off the evening
But you lonelily let him push under your bones
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us want to be alone

And you're coming home
You're coming home
You're coming home
You're coming home

I gave me away
I coulda knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way
I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so alone

Then you let me down
You coulda called if you needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked in instead
You let me down
Well, it's one thing being cheated
But you took him all the way through your bed

And now you're coming home
I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
I'm trying to forget
You're coming home
I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
You haven't called
But you haven't called
You're coming home
(x2 - this is where it's fun to yell along)

You're coming home

I gave me away
I coulda knocked off the evening
But I lonelily loomed her into my bones
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us want to be alone"